Thank you.

Considering we're getting into the swing of Oscars season and I'm about to move to a country that actually celebrates thanksgiving, I thought I'd display my own bit of gratitude.

In the last few months I've had a bit of a hard time, as you can probably tell from other posts and / or twitter. I am almost entirely sure I couldn't have done much more to act maturely and ethically having tried to separate myself 3 times from somebody toxic and finally achieving it. I think all that remains bouncing around in my head is a part of me that feels sorry for Mr Toxic's gf and wants to inform her, but that is none of my business and I'm better than that. She'll work it out eventually. sigh.

Anyway I am trying to see the positives, which when you look for them are many. So in an incredibly self indulgent post (yep, just for me you don't have to read it) I'm going to say thanks in my least sarcastic tone for the good things that have come out of a shitful situation:

Thank you for eventually returning my stuff intact

Thank you for showing me the remaining 90% of your personality, finally, which also means

Thank you for being someone I can't care enough about to hate

Thank you for making me feel so much better about myself by comparison

Thank you for forcing me to reassess who I can trust, if anybody

Thank you for showing my instinct to be better than I thought

Thank you for teaching me to listen to my friends

Thank you for justifying the importance of honesty when judging character

Thank you for the only genuinely seemingly selfless thing - sticking up for me

Thank you for clarifying what someone caring about me doesn't look like

Thank you for giving me something to cry about in the past months

Thank you for giving me nothing to cry about in the past weeks

Thank you for allowing me to leave easily and with no regrets

Thank you for giving me the space I've been trying to get for months, and

Thank you for finally letting me go...

...Please don't follow me this time. I am so much happier without you.

Ah. Having written it feels like I've said it. Thanks. now I'm very tired. Good night.